I think he likes me

Engagment photos are in!

Well, all of them turn out to be red x's when I try to add them. Is it because they're copyrighted? Does anyone know? If you want to see them, email me and I'll send you the link! (If you don't have my email, ask Brinnie!)

Happy Happy Birthday ba-by

Happy birthday to the greatest man I know!!!

I'm visiting him for his birthday. Today I have one of the worst stomach aches yet. Have only thrown up once though, lets hope it's the only time. Yay for ruining the day! Here's to hoping it's better in time to take him to Chuck e Cheese tonight!!!!

you're just the best i ever had

We took engagement pictures yesterday. We told her we wanted a lot of captured stuff, and candid things instead of just a bunch of posed shots. Well, we posed for about 10 pictures and then she said she had over 200 shots on her camera. She's good!! We didn't even realize she was doing it. I can't WAIT to see them!!!

We got our first wedding card yesterday! It's from a relative that he's never met, but she sounds really nice. She lives in Boston and has something to do with his grandma Helen. His mom knows her and she sent us a letter in the card that said that she has pictures of Tony and his siblings. I thought that was funny :). She sent us a nice card, check, and letter. So sweet! The card had 2 little hearts on it and she wrote our names in the hearts. So cute! I'd like to meet her someday.

I changed the worst diaper of my life yesterday. I also don't think that it will ever get any worse. I think that all blow-outs and diarrhea's, and whatever else life throws at me will be small and weak in comparison!

Last night on our way home, he stopped and bought me a full tank of gas. He's amazing... I'm not sure I could be any more in love with him. Saying goodbye this morning was really painful- one of the worst so far. It just seems so unfair! You have a great time with this person for a day and half and you're finally complete and then he gets wripped away from you, leaving you standing there incomplete again and unable to reconnect for 6 more days. It's awful.. I can't wait for it to be done.

you make me wanna be brave

Last night I drove back up to my old town and had dinner with Mary. After dinner went and stayed with another friend and 2 other of my favorite girls came to visit us. It was refreshing... I miss them! Also had my favorite ice cream!!

This morning I drove up to my new school for orientation. After 8 hours I understand the campus, have a student ID, and have a class schedule. It's a wonderful feeling. This planning a wedding thing has really taught me that things need to get done NOW. They can't wait until later because later there's something else that will need done.
I'm taking 4 classes- 2 of them are online. I refused any night classes. This hopefully means that I will have ample time to enjoy being a newlywed. I'm really excited to take my classes and be in school. It's a freeing feeling and I love it. I really like the campus and can't wait to start classes. I'm taking one called infant/toddler theory/practice that I'm paticularly excited for. I picked it out of the list as a must. I don't have monday classes which mainly means that when we get back from our honeymoon on sunday, I won't have to start school the very next day, which is excellent news.

In other news- my family is still screwed up. I won't go into detail (because I dont want to have to think about it), but my grandma is going into assisted living when she gets out of the hospital. Which should be in another week or so. We'll see. Oh and my other grandma apparently has a mass in her stomach. It's a membrane coverering her intestine and they don't know what it is.... so pray for her, please. My parents are still waiting for the break they were supposed to get when their youngest child graduated :)

oh, and my boobs look amazing in this shirt

summer time... busy time

We were mentioned in church on Sunday.. the pastor says "I love watching this couple over here- they're about to get married, and they're so happy! Life is full of bliss for them" :)

I think the best part of planning so far has been getting RSVP cards back! I get about 2 a day- so far, 9 people will be there!! Only 2 have said no, because they live in Oregon.

So you sailed away...

I just saw a website where they're counting down to the day that Shiloh Nouvel Pitt-Jolie turns 18. There's 17 years and 11 months left. At least the Mary-Kate/Ashley countown website didn't start until they were 16 or 17. I figure that 2 positives will make a negative and the kid will end up being really ugly. Or end up being friends with Suri Cruise-Holmes (is that her last name?) and both end up really screwed up- kind of in Paris/Nicole fashion but even worse.

you can't choose your family, so choose your friends wisely

So, my grandma is having surgery on friday morning for her neck. It's a 5 hour surgery to fuse her neck together. I'm scared to death for some reason.

In a lot of ways, though, this 2 weeks in the hospital has been so amazing for her. Before it happened, she was bitter, depressed, and slept all day (and never felt good). She's hyper-active by nature so her doctor had her on tranquilizers and God knows what else to calm her down. It was depressing her in the process. Just like ritalin for kids (don't get me started...). When you're in the hospital they don't let you take all your normal meds, so she hasn't been on all that crap for 2 weeks. It's amazing what a transformation that's been happening! She's upbeat, happy, hopeful, excited, looking forward to the future, and really hyper (i'm more than okay with that). Before, if you went to lunch with her, it was hard to get a positive thing out of her. Now she'll talk your ear off for an hour straight about all sorts of things. damn medication.

Here's the other part of it: It's come to our attention how inhumane their house is. We knew it was messy so we never went in. I'll spare you the details, because I might have nightmares and I don't want anyone else to unfairly get them too. I'll just let you in on the fact that their sewer doesn't work so they've been using a bucket (I dont want to know any more than that), and that's just the start of things.
My dad had a big plan to move them out of the house and into a little apartment (they already own it, it's a rental property). She needs home hospice care and they could recieve it that way (the house certainly wouldn't allow for that!!!). Well, my grandpa has turned into the bitter old man that's he's always been and refuses to move. He says he'll "clean up" and he'll take care of her. Yeah, right. The house needs more than a "cleaning" and he doesn't care enough to take care of her. He's part of the reason she was depressed.

Is it wrong to have ill-will towards your grandfather? I'm really struggling with it. I want to love him as my grandparent but at the same time I'm struggling with anger issues. really bad ones. I want to see my grandma stay happy, I want to keep this one- not revert back to the old one. Why does he want to keep her in that situation? Without the proper care that she needs? And he took all her hopes and excitement and dashed them. Berated her and dashed her, just like he always has. I really want to see her in assisted living. I know that my grandpa won't care for her, and assisted living is wonderful. That's what I really want for her- but he won't allow it. Oh, and he also says he'll fix the sewer in the next week. Yeah....... an 85 year old man, out in the 95 degree weather with no experience, fixing the sewer in 1 week. Okay.

Bah! I'm just so frustrated and upset and I want to do everything I can for her like she's done for me for 21 years, but what can I do?? My dad talked to my grandpa for several hours and got no where. He'll die if he continues to live there and be that unhealthy but I guess he doesn't see it that way, and doens't care that it isn't right for her to be there.

Anyways.... that's me.. take it or leave it. But either way, please pray.

June 7

I wore a tank top to work today... in the shower tonight I realized my underarm hair was a lot longer than I thought it was :-/

We're watching a show about things lodged in human bodies- a guy told his drunk friend that he was going to swallow his key so that he wouldn't drive home... and then accidently did. They took the x-ray to a locksmith and the guy cut an exact match to the key. Crazy eh?

Invite day!

We successfully finished the invites yesterday... After 7 hours and 2 trips into town!
We ran out of ribbon twice (who knew it would take THAT much??), and return address labels once. We had materials made for 160 of them even though I only needed 140, and I had 150 return address labels. My mother-in-law brought me 20 new names (that's what I get for asking Tony for a list, and not her!) so we had enough materials, thankfully. Praise God for that nudge to made 160 of everything.

I had 4 amazing ladies here, helping me. My 2 moms and 2 of my friends are the greatest people I could ask for! They had such good ideas and never got tired of tying 160 little bows. They never complained and were just wonderful! We had a fun time. Our 7 hours of hard work saved us about $150 so I think it was worth it.

and.... THEY'RE DONE!!!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!! Now the RSVP count begins! I can't wait to get the first one back!

2 months, 11 days

We registered for gifts yesterday and today. It was so fun! Like a big, free, shopping spree. Took a lot of research and organization, but it was fun. I hope people buy us the stuff! :)

Saturday is invite making day. I've been stressing way too much about the invites. Every little step of it seems to be going wrong. But right now it looks like they're all set and ready to make. Hopefully the assembly process goes well.

My diamond is sparkling a lot right now. With every key I hit with my left hand. I love it :)

My week off is about to end- I start my new job on Monday. Babies and toddlers! I can't wait! I'm not going to make anywhere close to what I'm worth, but oh well. God got me the job, He'll explain it to me later, right?