Happy Halloween!!

Weekend with husband home= fun pumkin carving!

Bad Starbucks

So, I woke up at my normal time this morning, to be at work at 8. Then I talked to the toddler director and found out I don't go in till 9 today. That meant there was an hour and a half until I had to leave. I thought it would be the perfect day to use my gift card and treat myself to Starbucks. I got a caramel mocha, my favorite. It tastes like dirt!! I'm so dissapointed. I don't know what happened or what they forgot, but it's awful :(

Can I have him back?

My baby is gone... for 2 weeks. I wasn't worried about it until I dropped him off at the airport today. It's hard when you enjoy someone so much and have him every minute and then all the sudden you have to be all alone. We'll see how Kaylen survives living alone in the big city for 2 weeks :-/
Wish me luck!

Our New Life

I'm super behind in pictures. Here is our new life so far! Enjoy!



Our drive up to the mountains to play in snow!
Homemade pizza night. Yummy!Fall leavesOur fire place gets some action First snow! Yesterday... beautiful!

I've been really bad at being faithful lately.....

We've been presented with an amazingopportunity! We just applied so pray for it! We really want to do it. If we get it, it will be incredible how God worked everything out (our stresses easing into this opportunity)

must run, our first married fire (in the fire place!) is about to take place :)

I've developed an new relationship... relaced an old friend. This one isn't comfy but soon I will grow to love it, too. I got a new computer! Here's to new beginnings. It's beautiful and fast and new. I'm blessed to have it.

I started work yesterday... love it!

I keep hitting some combo of buttons (really, I've done it like 5 times just in this post) and whatever it is, it deletes everything I just wrote. any ideas? something on the right hand- enter/shift something like that.

oh, and I've heard a couple of times that my background isn't doing it, so although it's my favorite picture in the world, i'll soon be changing it. (thank you for the honesty)

R.I.P.

My computer is a gonner. We had 3 1/2 wonderful years together. My mom called me yesterday and told me it was pronounced dead. Such a sad day! A rightful funeral is in order, I say.
Soon I will be replacing him... very soon, I hope.


In other news, what would you do about being a bridesmaid in a wedding that you've come to realize you hardly support? Well... you support it, but you don't agree with the timing or anything else that's going on (as a sister in Christ, not as an angry friend)
Keep in mind, you've already bought the dress

Tonight's the night

Our computer is down. It has been so frustrating to do my online classes at the library. One computer has word proccessor and the other has internet. You have to go back and forth between the two trying to get things done. I have to look up the assignment, get the information for it, and then switch computers and try to remember exactly what it is I have to do. Then I have to do the work, save it to a disk and go back to the other computer and send it. Then start all over again with the next assignment. You have to check in and out each time you switch computers and you're only allowed 3 hours a day. It's such a pain! I will never again regret having both word processor and internet in one computer!!

Today was spent doing homework... really, the whole day. I'm starting to come out of my fog though. At least I think so. I really enjoyed the fall day today. More than I have all season. It's amazing here- there are trees galore and therefore the ground is COVERED in leaves- bright yellow leaves all over the place. It's gorgeous.

Tony has 2 interviews tomorrow. 1 in the morning and 1 in the afternoon. Pray for it. I got a job!! Yippee! As soon as my background check clears, I can finally start earning money again. Praise God!

This weekend is jammed pack with plans, and I can't wait!

Reflections

As I watch yet more coverage of school shootings, I'm sickened and enraged.
My entire being is so sad for what is happening. Sad that young girls were shot in the head and arm- girls between 6 and 13! I work with little girls and the mere thought makes me want to be sick and so sad through to my core.

We're told that both men were acting out on things that happened to them. One guy was abused as a kid and was acting out by molesting high school girls. I'm sorry... that's not good enough for me. The other one lost his daughter and therefore took that out on other people's daughters. I'm sorry... there are other ways. He molested youngsters when he was 12, and wanted to do it again. There are way too many things wrong with that to even begin.
Again, sickened and saddened to my core.

I'm saddened that men are so disturbed inside and can't bring it to their wives to work out together, saddened that they need to take this out on children- mere children!

The part of me that's so angry I want to puke is that they are cowards- absolute cowards.
They aren't men enough to own up to their actions and have to end their lives before they have to stand up for themselves. I'm sickened that our country raised men like that.

Even inside of me, I'm sad for the men. Sad that things like that happened when they were young and there was no other way for them to deal with it.

I think working with children makes this so hard for me. Not only the death and torture of kids (even high school girls), but the fact that 2 men (and others!) had things like that happen to them.

It's a sick, sad world and I feel myself being so sad the last few days, feeling way too much empathy.

There's a beautiful baby girl next to me right now... I don't know her, but she's precious. Are we going to start raising the next generation better? Or will it continue to get worse?
I think we all know the answer to that question... and it's sick