Reflections

As I watch yet more coverage of school shootings, I'm sickened and enraged.
My entire being is so sad for what is happening. Sad that young girls were shot in the head and arm- girls between 6 and 13! I work with little girls and the mere thought makes me want to be sick and so sad through to my core.

We're told that both men were acting out on things that happened to them. One guy was abused as a kid and was acting out by molesting high school girls. I'm sorry... that's not good enough for me. The other one lost his daughter and therefore took that out on other people's daughters. I'm sorry... there are other ways. He molested youngsters when he was 12, and wanted to do it again. There are way too many things wrong with that to even begin.
Again, sickened and saddened to my core.

I'm saddened that men are so disturbed inside and can't bring it to their wives to work out together, saddened that they need to take this out on children- mere children!

The part of me that's so angry I want to puke is that they are cowards- absolute cowards.
They aren't men enough to own up to their actions and have to end their lives before they have to stand up for themselves. I'm sickened that our country raised men like that.

Even inside of me, I'm sad for the men. Sad that things like that happened when they were young and there was no other way for them to deal with it.

I think working with children makes this so hard for me. Not only the death and torture of kids (even high school girls), but the fact that 2 men (and others!) had things like that happen to them.

It's a sick, sad world and I feel myself being so sad the last few days, feeling way too much empathy.

There's a beautiful baby girl next to me right now... I don't know her, but she's precious. Are we going to start raising the next generation better? Or will it continue to get worse?
I think we all know the answer to that question... and it's sick