I do love sunshine

Today has been A DAY. Gosh...

I had to do something really crappy today. At the sake of protecting the kids in my care, I had to turn in a friend. Turn AGAINST a friend. It feels awful and I wish I could take it all back. I came home and cried and never want to go back. I think it's the worst feeling in the world..

I feel like everyone hates me today. Theres ^ that. Plus a friend that months previous I would've called a 'best friend' now discludes me from her life. Her baby-to-be is a girl and I had to find out through the grape vine (a few months ago, she would've called me the minute she found out), and she has also named the little girl and casually reffered to her by name in an email today. That's big news! I haven't seen her since early january and she seems unconcerned despite my constant attempts to make contact and catch up. I offered to throw her a baby shower and she says "I think I'm okay."

I feel so hated and scorned. Husband reminds me that when we uphold integrity, people won't like us. Christ said so lots and lots of years ago.

I'm not a fan of today


PS- I am feeling better.. finally! At the moment I've kicked every illness that came my way. Thank you for all the concern! That always makes me happy
And this weekend I go to Portland!!! yippee!!!!