life
Leslie, my dear kindred spirit! I have a ton of emotions running through my head and I was just thinking the exact thing that your blog said, right before I read it.
I don't understand life right now. My life is the essense of a roller-coaster. Right now it's down (only in the past couple of hours, true to it's theme park ride condition, I was up for the whole day until now) and I truly feel like I have no one to talk to. I can't tell anyone what's going on because humans judge. I can't be 100% real because I don't want my friends to think I'm stupid or realize that my life truly is a roller-coaster. I don't want people to un-fairly judge my relationship, or my emotions. So for that reason all I can do is cry out to God, and then just cry. I don't want to whine, just vent. If I don't have anyone to talk to, I might as well vent, right?
I'm stuck between viewing myself as unfortunate and realizing just how blessed I am. Earlier in my outcry to God, I asked him why I can't have what everyone else has. Then I had to stop and wonder what that was about, because for that past couple of months I've wondered why it is that I've been so lucky and so blessed compared to the majority of people my age. I just don't get it. I wish I could blame it on PMS but unfortunetly it's real, not emotion-driven.
Anyways, I'm off to check laundry.
posted by TonyandKaylen @ 11:39 PM
1 Comments:
oh Kaylen! i am really dumbfounded to read that you feel how i feel, and read you explain it in many more words and really have my own frustrating written by someone else! that shocked me so much, my name on your blog.
last night i just boiled over to God, because WHY do judgements always come into play, with everyone, and leave me feeling that my true feelings or experiences or whatever can only be justified by God, and only disreagrded by humans.
those have been my feelings, and thank you for expressing how you felt - it makes a world of difference to me!
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